Just got over a piece of myself

Almost posted this from my phone, but had to stop pretty quickly. I type with my thumbs and the combination of my long acrylics and Dreamwidth's absence of specialized mobile posting put an end to that. "Specialized mobile posting" is such an ugly combination of words I almost don't want to publish this...

I'm going to see Samuel soon! As in in a few hours, I think. I miss him so much. Haven't seen him since Thursday night (08/31/23), and that encounter was short. We had basically just seen each other to see each other again, and /in my mind/ to have sex, I guess. I didn't think that he would have any other reason to see me even though I'm his girlfriend, even though his actions up until this point have done everything to contradict that. That says so much about my self-worth, or lack of it, especially when it comes to what men think about me-- it really is all in your own head-- your weeded out hangover head actually, you idiot. That actually probably explains everything. Idiot!

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