A messy not Monday
Sep. 5th, 2023 06:58 pmLast night was amazing. Mentioned this in my last post, but my anxiety around that part of my life seems to have disappeared completely-- at least for now. But god, I'm so tired on a mental and physical level. I know exactly why (it's the edibles. And the 6 AM asthma attack. Why are you still doing this to yourself?) and I'm about to indulge myself again in an hour. I guess that floaty warm feeling in my stomach is worth the ensuing headache, depression stat boost, and lack of desire to do anything until my next fix. This is how I'm thinking about it: I was already in a depressive episode before, might as well get those few hours of bliss in. Not to mention the way it heightens media is like crack. That's funny-- comparing drugs to drugs. I've reached the peak.